I am not the same person I was yesterday! Those around me now have a different version. One of Growth. Strength. Power. Forgiveness. Grace. And a deep love for all beings.
I took a step back from my social network for a couple of years. I needed to unplug. Disconnect from the matrix. I was still. Quiet. Alone. Really reflecting on what truly matters. It was so cleansing. Purifying. Humbling. Very much needed.
I went into the pandemic, broken. Lost. Misunderstood. Silenced. Confused. Angry. Disappointed. Betrayed. 3 years later I have forgiven. I understand and clearly recognize past phases of my journey. Life is filled with lessons and blessings. The last decade has brought some incredible experiences. Some I would never want another soul to go through. Others, I wish I could share with everyone, even those that do not enjoy my light.
I recognize how my reactions triggered a series of interactions that were impactful. I realize the coping and defense mechanisms that I used to shield and protect myself. I understand that the position I was in on my journey at the time altered my perception of those around me.
I see things so much differently now. So much clearer.
My growth may not be for you. My journey is not for you, it’s mine. We are on this journey as individuals and simultaneously as a collective. My experiences were specifically designed for me and you in this realm. We each have a purpose. A role we are supposed to fill. It's all to help move this energy that is constant. Too deep? Maybe. One truth is that we’re not designed to be alone. My daily prayer is that I meet my tribe for the rest of my journey.
A tribe that sees me! That values me. Respects me. Knows that there are layers to me and each of them are united to make me the dynamic being that I am. A tribe that loves me with my flaws. They actually see my flaws as valuable lessons that will aid in reaching my highest self. And guess what? They actually want to see me get there and organically want to support that growth. That's deep! And yet it's my deepest desire. To connect and truly show up as me, myself and I. Maleika René. Not hiding behind the mask. Not living in my representative. Just unapologetically me.
When I came back to the social media platforms after being unplugged for a long time, I left my old pages and started new, I've been curating a space of peace. Calm. Forgiveness. Compassion. Patience. And growth. I am not who I used to be. I have changed. So much. Yesterday is definitely marked in the history books. Tomorrow isn't here yet where growth and change is imminent. Standing in the present, I can say with my chest that I do not look like what I've been through. And I am so grateful that I went through it.
I think I might start a poetry series and write a poem about the change. 💋
🎶 9hz Alpha Waves (This Moment)
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